Bijan International

Hi Bijan,   Ok, this is just needing to happen now, regardless of my work load. This keeps popping into my head, to the point where I feel I can’t breathe until I write it down. Please feel free to edit as you see fit. So here goes….   I’m not sure that my story after last week is one of success, as much as one of a re-awakening. How many people remember the adage “We are our own worst critic”? Well, last week’s seminar reminded me of that.   There I was, walking into a room full of confident, assured, professional, happy people. What in the world was I doing, thinking that I belonged with this group? Then we did the exercise about what our main goals for the program were. I was amazed by the people who stood up and explained why self-confidence was their main goal. I couldn’t believe it! How could this be? These were people that showed so much confidence, it made me squirm and want to hide in a corner. And here they were, proclaiming their lack of confidence.   Then the lightening bolt struck. Not only are we our own worst critics. For some reason, we all seem to wear glasses that refuse to allow us to see in ourselves what others see in us. In my case at least, when people said I show confidence, I laughed to myself and thought they were either being kind, or were just plain crazy. Little do they know. Yet, somehow, for some reason, they see confidence. Is it really there and I am just not seeing it because of the glasses I am wearing?   After the session, I set myself a task. I would not just laugh to myself when someone said something about me that I did not see in myself. I would try to take off my glasses and see if I could find that something in myself. I must admit, I feel like I have bitten off more than I can chew here. However, this task is at least forcing me to realize that maybe I’m not as bad as I really think. Maybe there is something there, and I should learn to embrace it and let it become a part of the “real” me.   Cindy